So Long 2009

SO long n goodbye to this year...
2009 really teach me a lot about life..
i started my 2009 with a date with someone that i likes...we've been into a nameless relationship about 6 month...its not about the relationships that I've regret it,but its me..i never learn to say those 3 words to her..all i do is give her world because that is the only thing that's matter in my head..after not seeing her,i realize that material is not everything..
after 6 months of the nameless relationship,I've move on to myself...but still she will always on my mind..
during those times alone,i am really alone,i have no friend to share with,to cry with because i am far away with my friends because some commitment issues with my family..
but I've learns to live without a friends...eventhough it is hard for me...only god knows hows...
during my time alone,I've been sick,i got infected by H1N1..during that period it was really devastating...after the H1N1 turn to B1N1(thats means its been healed),i realize that i need to do something my health...
before this i am kinda fat person nthen i manage to loose weight but then after some periods of time i've gained again...so with this condition, my health is at risk..so i did learn about nutrition,exercise and everything that i need to know..n at the end i did manage to loose the weight and maintain it n still losing it...
and so i find my new interest in my life which is healths besides thinking that i can do better with my ex if i get the chance...

after long time being alone and i was also planning to be singles for a little while n also that i hope that my ex will come back to me(like this is gonna happen),then suddenly there's is one girl knocking on my heart door...
she is someone who is i know through the internet social networking..
she used to be my one of me active fs friends...but fs suddenly are forgotten...and all people tend to forgot to open theirs account....laslty we've finally meet again at fb...
from fs to fb...hhehehe
she is the first who is start msging me at fb..nthen we start to msging each other at fb..everyday,there is a reason for me to open my fb just to check my inbox to see whether there are any msg from her...
nthen we start to texting each other by hp...(** we have the same hp btw what a coincidence hehe )...
honestly she is not my type,but i think i am falling for her...i dont know why n how??
but i don't to fall that soon.i don't even have a date with her yet..the only time we've meet is when i give her a ride to somewhere nearby...

so Finally this coming Sunday(its the first Sunday of 2010) i will finally officially meet her on a date...n hope we could feel something...

n so goodbye 2009 n welcome 2010..hope 2010 will be our year and so as the coming year!!!!

TIRED

i am tired!!!!
i am tired because of being fooled for a quiet time.
i am tired because all these while i am waiting for you to come back to me again (likes its gonna happens).....

they do asked me to stop because i am too tired but loving u is never been a fool-stop.
but i know we will NEVER be together again and if we will so, i think we cant have the "FUTURE"...because u know why...

i am tired of waiting
i am tired of thinking of u 24/7
i am tired to think that one day u will rang up my phone n say everything that i need to hear...
so i am tired...eventhough its been for quiet time..yes!!!U r still on my mind..
even when i try to find somebody new....
but what to do...when people feel liked they were tired,most of them will feel sleepy and when people feel sleepy, they eventually will go to sleep so the next morning they wont feel sleepy again n feel no more tired...

as for me,i tried to sleep when i am tired n to wake up in the next day so that i wont feel tired again to be waiting for u, over and over again....as time goes by, time did be a good teacher to me.....and what i learned from my teacher is waiting for u is like waiting for a rains at the drought...and i don't know if the rains would fall into the drought...

So i am tired!!!!!i am tired..so i want to fall asleep so that in the next morning when i wake up,u will be vanished from my head....

and so that i can move on and live happily ever after...

because now i realized that it is hard for rains to fall on the drought eventhough it is maybe,but when is maybe...plus it is a yes or no...so i better take no for now and move to the other place.......where i can find the rains...

HAALLLOOOOOO

Hello to anyone who is reading this...this is my first entry for my first blog..hahaha
Before this I am a quite stalker for every blog that I've known...good or bad i sometimes do give a little comment..but right now,I think it is better for me now to write my own blog so that the others can comment on the entry that which will i post sooner or later...
BTW I am not a good writer..i never trained myself to be a writer and take a class or activities that is specifically to be a writer...so hope u guys do understand and hope u guys have a thrills towards reading my blog...haha(gonna see lots of this)....ok gotta go...Auf Wiedersehen